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Ugh. (Promising start to an entry, eh?) This only concerns two people, and I'm sure they know who they are. Eloria, you're going to be confused as HELL reading this, so I suggest you just skip it, heh. I'll send you your pin soon I swear, sorry I suck so much. >_< I agree with you Ash, about the bitching-about-life thing being annoying, but, heh... now I'm basically going to bitch about bitching? Whoo hoo. Firstly, you're wrapped up in each other. That's fine, I think you two are cute together. You're good for each other too - I think you trust each other more than you ever trusted J. You don't know how happy I am for you that you've found that! And equally as happy that you aren't, well, enemies now, because while that was going on and I was trying to befriend both of you at once, it was pretty damn difficult. But damnit, I know you get jealous and seek revenge for things (indeed, the revenge de la Mary is one scary thing to face, haha ^_~), but do you really love her as much as you say you do, if you don't trust that she won't cheat on you? I've never been in a relationship, so sure, I'm preaching about that which I don't know... but I understand people and I come from a breaking family and I've picked up this stuff from others and my own common sense. Do you think that she will run off with J and live happily ever after? First of all, I don't really think happily ever after really works with J. And you know she abhors drama, why would she do something that would so *drastically* create it? And I can't deny it, I feel like a third wheel. It's self-centered, it's selfish, it's horrible, I shouldn't bitch about it, but damnit, I DO feel like such and I HATE it! I'm know part of it is how busy I get in May and stuff, but it seems like all the time now you go over to her house or she goes to yours and you hang out and la dee da and then I hear about it and it's like, "gee, I'm so glad you had so much fun" while I'm sitting in the midst of twelve pages of geometry and a history packet, pulling an English project from my ass. And then you complain about how she doesn't call or you miss her SO much and oh my GOD she's walking with J! GASP! DRAMA TIME! You two are my best friends, and honestly I shouldn't complain, because I see you two more than my other best friends. Remember those? The ones in Virginia and California and Texas that I never get to talk to (grounded or too busy or asleep), that never call (but that's okay and all, I'm phoneshy), that I certainly have never met (we were planning the road trip, her and I... like that's ever gonna happen). The ones that for years were my only source of happiness at times, that I took for granted and now are all but gone? I'm so damn lucky, I see you two every weekday. I'm so damn lucky, once or so a month I get to hang out with you two outside of school. And then I read about how much you miss each other, how much you love each other, and just.... Damnit, never mind, it doesn't matter anyway. *Sighs* I'm probably going to go back and reread this fifty times and lock it because I'm a cowardly ass. I feel so damn alone. -Adrienne
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